Wednesday, December 28

3 days after christmas. i've been not drinking for awhile now. i've thought about giving up not drinking, but it's really hard when you get used to it. i think my kids would really like to see me not sober just one holiday. i suppose i could try hard to quit not drinking for them. i don't know. i went through the negative 12 steps once and that helped for awhile as long as i didn't have sponsor. but then my sponsor climbed on the wagon and started attended meetings regularly, so to make a short story long, i eventually quit going to meetings myself. you know how it goes from there. one day you not drink one drink and the next thing you know two months have gone by and you're waking up clear headed and feeling okay. once you get to this point it's hard to not not drink.